Friday, December 19, 2008


I make a wish every time I look at a clock and it says 11:11

Last night, I was driving home, and looked up and saw that it was "that time" - and I made a wish. For years (and years) my wish was always the same.
"please, PLEASE let me get pregnant"

So I automatically started wishing for that, only to remember with a start that it was impossible. Physically impossible. For me. To have a baby.

And then, I was very, profoundly sad. Because while I don't actually want another child right now (maybe ever) the idea that even if I did want one, I couldn't have one........well, it's a tough thing to come to terms with when you are 33 and three relatives are pregnant or just had babies, and it's just a matter of time before all the rest of the siblings and cousins start reproducing........and then there's all the friends who are boiund to breed. A lot of babies in my future - and none of them are going to be mine.

So I switched my wish - right then and there. New 11:11 wish forevermore.

No, of course I can't tell you what it is - or it won't COME TRUE, silly !

1 comment:

derfina said...

I hope it comes true, whatever it is!